Back from Forgetfulness

Wow. It's been a while. I always forget I have a blog somewhere. I'm sorry I left you to my premature senility.

Since it has been a long long while, I don't think I need to point out that a lot of things have happened. For one thing, I'm still with the same company but I am no longer answering questions about which channel will an old show with men dancing in tights can be watched or how much it is to order Big Busty Mommas. Now I answer questions like how do I connect to the internet with my Blackberry? Or how can I prevent my teenager from downloading too much content on his mobile phone?

In the beginning I thought that I will be happier with the change. I guess I'm partly right. It's still the same thing though. The more things change, the more things stay the same and I don't want that. I could say that I am disappointed in myself for not taking a more active role in my life. I always say that I am the kind who goes with the flow while bitterly complaining about it in silence.I don't want this anymore. I always tell myself I have no entrepreneurial sense at all, that I can't sell a thing, but it seems that if I don't open myself up to this I'll never get myself out of the 5 year rut that I have developed for myself.

For the next weeks I have a little project for myself to make. I am going to stretch out of my comfort zone. I'll step into the unknown regions of me to uncover exactly what it is that will give me the satisfaction, what is it that will let me go to sleep unafraid that I will die without having accomplished something that I can truly be proud of.

I just wish I can see it through. I've  a really huge problem with consistency. No I won't wish it. I'll work on it!